Showing posts with label my literary pearls. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my literary pearls. Show all posts

Wednesday, 4 January 2023

Dried Inkpot

 

Writing used to be easier for me. Words flowed naturally when I wrote my first poem at age 9. Also when I wrote my first blog-post 14 or 15 years ago. Most definitely in the years 2011, 2012 and 2015 (per the statistics of this blog). It was easy to write poems, short stories, book reviews, TV series reviews and even anecdotes. Whereas now, it seems difficult to write an email or even a text.

I feel like the main reason is that in the earlier years, external feedback didn't matter more than the internal satisfaction that comes with writing a piece. There was a fearlessness back then. Maybe a nonchalance. While today, it is all about- (1) whether this thought is writeable? (2) whether what I wrote can be published? (3) how many views, likes, comments? (4) what next can I write on, I cannot be a 1-post wonder. Must write again and more. 

Has the inkpot dried? Maybe. So why refill now? Because it is cathartic. With many negatives of the real world, that plague the mind, writing is like a familiar few sips of tonic that can slow-heal the heart.


Monday, 3 February 2020

Prayers


Happy New Year!

I am not an atheist, nor am I a pious lady. Just a simple believe-in-God kind. Someone who tries to pray every morning, but misses more often than should. It is not a part-of-life like it is for my parents.

But my praying habits are not like those who mentioned in the Hindi doha "dukh mein sumiran sab karein, sukh mein kare na koy.." [everyone remembers God in sorrow, no one thinks of him in times of joy]. My prayers have been in all times- sad/happy/neutral.

Some in family pray first thing in the morning, some twice a day, others during the day (in between a commute or in the waiting rooms with praying beads), some by scribbling Lord's name in notebooks and a few towards the end of the day before lying down for sleep. Schools had morning assemblies, which means that for 12 years, I prayed every morning. Most of it was just singing, but it was consistent. A routine.

Now my prayers are less songs/hymns/mantras and more words. Words, that change with time, and which are either a request or gratitude for a request fulfilled. Words about wordly affairs like work, visa, marriage, travel etc. Occasionally about bestowing 'sadbuddhi' (loose translation=good brains) to my flatmates :P (funny but earnest request).

Elders say that praying leads to feeling positive. Never prayed so fervently to feel much but anytime I see my baby niece folding hands and flashing all of her 8 teeth when someone says 'jai jai', there is a sudden wave of positive that flows all across me. I admit I'm drawn to a gurudwara for the halwa (prasad) & to a church for the architecture and whenever I go to mandirs, jumping up to ring the bells draws maximum of my focus. But a quiet chat with God, after dressing up in the morning, is very concentrated amount of feel-good I feel.

And now, since my brain is not able to end this post in any other way, here's a true story-
Class I, age 6: my teacher had asked me if I knew what my name means. My reply was that Vinti means prayer to God!

Thursday, 9 May 2019

Language of Math of Science of Play of Work


A chapter:

Characters: Corporate top bosses from the Buy department and a Regional team from the Sell Department.

Plot-line: Sell has re-sold something which Buy has not bought yet. Sell has earned a margin (a percentage). No one knows the Buy Price but we have a Sell Price and claim to have a Margin.

Story: Any Indian kid with middle school Math background can back-calculate what Buy Price can be. Sell confidently wants to solve for x.
The catch however is, first it is Buy who needs to buy at x, and then that can be sold at a Margin Sell claims to have made, by selling at Sell Price.

Charming side hero Product guy tries to dumb it down for Sell. Regional Sell is a fan of Corporate Product guy. Corporate Product guy is a Marketing person.
To customers- Product guy sells his product as an idea.
To Sell- Product guy sells incentives to sell that idea to those customers.
Product guy is the 'ultimate seller' as he sells selling to Sell.

This time the product to be sold is a product Product guy wants Buy to buy so that Sell can resell. So you calculate Sell Price, and not back-calculate Buy Price.

What if Buy ends up buying it at more than x? The margin then would be less than the Margin Sell is proud to have achieved, because Sell Price has been fixed as sale has been made.

Sell is furious because ultimate seller Product guy is speaking about buy, which is gibberish (and betrayal) to Sell because what is being bought?
"Product guy gives product and I sell". 
"Customers talk about buy and now my Product guy is talking about Buy too. I hate Buy which means Buy department is the villain". 
"I have sold and earned Margin and I deserve incentives, not this questioning from crazy Buy department on what did you sell when no one has bought it". 
"A product-seller is asking for money and Buy is not paying because Buy did not buy. Who is this product-seller? Because I am seller of this product"!

Another work-day ends.



Sunday, 31 March 2013

Strange


Chapter D: Vendetta opines

I believe that girls are strange. Since I belong to the same species, I will not rule out the possibility that I may be queer too.
I say this because of two particular girls in my mind right now. Miss Rihanna and Miss Petunia. In increasing order of bafflement they arouse in me. No, that’s strange.I wasn't thinking about these two. Actually I had two boys in my mind whom I associate with the aforementioned girls. Both these males smoke. Mr. Adam updates facebook statuses which read: “Marijuana should be legalised”. R always makes it a point to frown and speak as abominably about A’s tobacco habits as best she can. Mr. Drake apparently told P about his sad story of lost father, not so sophisticated background and his consequent entry into the world of chain smokers. P was once too close to me (a fact that sometimes embarrasses me; but hey she was my best friend then. This fact is undeniable and the fun we had together unmatchable. No, she was a crazy being, determined to pull me down and so, embarrassment is justifiable and validates the fact that I’m sane after-all.) . She would often confide in that the only thing she detested about her otherwise perfect boyfriend is smoking. She hates smokers. Why then she befriended D who cooked up this unfortunate tale and served it with a pinch of wanton and garnished it with puffs of smoke? A too has a grievous saga to explain his affinity towards the world of tobacco. Well, he hasn't shared this saga actually with R but she told me once that his life back home is tough. Upsetting. Inhuman.
So?
I maintain that there are thousand excuses to do wrong. Not a single reason. D added in his tale, to gain the sympathetic shoulder, that he never wanted to smoke. Also he is ever since meaning to quit. If you have this much insight and are that much willing to correct the incorrect, do it! A says that he knows that this habit is cancerous but he does not wish to give up the solace. I say shut up! Along with yourself, you are breeding many innocent and imbecile passive smokers. To these two pretty ladies, I can only grimace. One had been my best friend earlier, the other still earlier. Both these missies have all the brains in the world. In comparison to me, I mean. If they are so good at academics and daily chores, respectively, why cannot they acknowledge the simple fact that befriending a wrong-doer makes them abettors too? They are committing the sin of tolerating tobacco. Strange I call them. Not senseless though. R and P do know that smoking is bad and sad stories are bull-shit. They aren't senseless. Only strange ,by remaining nonchalant to this tobacco thing. 

Thursday, 8 November 2012

“Mango People in Banana Republic”

Credit: Priya Gupta
A friend who wasn't in the mood to design this
and came up with this spectacular picture!!

#My entry for a local competition :)

“Mango People in Banana Republic”

This statement by the ruling party’s son-in-law is a foot-in-mouth act.

Meanwhile, his current enemy (considered a stooge of the opposition) is all smiles.
People with power usually have good oratory skills. They can motivate the masses and build a strong nation.

Sadly, these “apples”-of-the-eye of high and mighty indulge in senseless war of words.
Nonetheless, the Mango People fight for vegetable prices, flaunt their “BlackBerries” ,check out movie reviews on “Rotten Tomatoes “and work hard to keep the country intact.


The general verdict of these mangoes:
“Good and progressive governance seems like sour grapes.”

By-Vinti Dhawan

Friday, 26 October 2012

Going berserk at the dawn of tweenage

filed under Vendetta
Chapter B: Vendy turns twenty


Then: You're 12, you are excited about being on the threshold of teenage.
Now: You're 19, you go berserk about entering tweenage!

Then: Whoa, I'm gonna be a grown up now!
Now: Sigh, wish I could be 5 again!

Then: I'll be out of Middle School, and will have my own version of High School Musical.
Now: I want to enter the best B-School, earn at least a zillion , and HAVE to look the best.

Then: Since last three months, going gaga over the fact that my bday is round the corner.
Now: Like exams, the D-day is knocking on the door, and I want to take as long as possible to turn the door knob.

Then: Hinting mummy now and then , during supermarket excursions, to buy the inevitable Vanilla Essence.
Now: Feigning the lack of knowledge that your pals are bringing some random cake.

Then: Your family gives you a lavish party.
Now: The hole in your pocket just transformed from its microscopic self to a gargantuan avatar .






Tuesday, 26 June 2012

Know Thy Star - II

Here, I write about two girls .Both of them played roles that were of 6- 12 years of age when I used to watch them on TV.  I was the same age.

Jodie Sweetin and Tiffany Brissette.
Stephanie Tanner
Or popularly known as Stephanie Tanner (Full House) and VICI the robot (Small Wonder).


No, I didn't hero worship them. 
But, they seemed to be the cool icons for my age. 

After many years, there's a re run of Full House on Zee Cafe` . This made me Google about these two young stars to find out wassup with them these days. 

Realisation dawned upon me that they have grown up! Like me, they too have changed. Unlike me, they are in their 30's.

Know thy star was to help me know about people I watch and cool stuff they're upto. 

But, in this case, I decided it would be better for me to know them as their characters and not their real selves. Not because Jodie (who was once a smart kid Stephanie) is now a mother or Tiffany (once an affable robot who could shower out tears and flip through pages of a book in seconds and tell each and every line out of it) is now a former actress and currently a nurse.

Because, they form a part of memory which is still child like. 
I actually remember myself playing a computer in a small act-play competition in class V and speaking out my dialogues the way VICI used to say. Oh, I won first prize for that one. So, its one happy memory. :)

Is it necessary to know the real person who is so different from what you have always known him/her to be? 


Wednesday, 28 March 2012

With love, from heavens above

We Indians have a great culture of celebrating and thanking heavens for our every new step, venture, pursuit or purchase.
 A new car, television, home, utensils, baby, computer, job, birthday, our favorite cricketer/movie star's birthday, his/her baby's birthday, passing matriculation, passing 12 years of education, a new juicer-mixer-grinder or anything that brings about a new something in our lives. Remembering God and merry making is what we love to do. Like Hobbits who love to eat and party all the time.
These are events in one's "timeline" -a la Facebook- that mark achievement, enhance one's happiness quotient and form fond memories. 
"Every man's memories are his private literature."
Indians love to keep memories, photo albums, old letters, we could run our own museums ...
Its nothing to do with being religious or being bound by customs and compulsions, we find a solace in this way of life. There's a feeling  that a higher power or a supreme being or the ultimate is looking after us and our new decision is a good one and will bring us lots of good. 
This is essential for human resource development . 
Its interesting that we are such a diverse nation , having as many ways of paying our gratitude to our as many Gods for as many reasons. Decorations and ceremonies involved our often fun-filled and enrich our moral science. These bring us together, like a close knit family. 
And there's nothing wrong in attributing our all to God. It isn't that hard-work and perseverance aren't  the reasons for one's success. The idea is that hard-work and perseverance are infused into us by God or let me call it "faith". 
Faith in oneself or one's parents or mentor too is equivalent to faith in holy father up above, that's a different discussion altogether...
My personal belief is that this "thanking God for the world so sweet" is a sweet way of showing humility, being happy and looking forward to better things out of life.

Saturday, 12 November 2011

The Last Lesson


The very first lesson in my school's English text was named "THE LAST LESSON".
A really delightful way of beginning the school's curriculum and  beginning the tour of reading.... Also increased my likeness of French writers :)


The Last Lesson by Alphonse Daudet





I started for school very late that morning and was in great dread of a scolding, especially because M. Hamel had said that he would question us on participles, and I did not know the first word about them. For a moment I thought of running away and spending the day out-of-doors. It was so warm, so bright! The birds were chirping at the edge of the woods; and in the open field back of the saw-mill the Prussian soldiers were drilling. It was all much more tempting than the rule for participles, but I had the strength to resist, and hurried off to school.


When I passed the town hall there was a crowd in front of the bulletin board. For the last two years all our bad news had come from there--the lost battles, the draft, the orders of the commanding officer--and I thought to myself, without stopping:


"What can be the matter now?"


Then, as I hurried by as fast as I could go, the blacksmith, Wachter, who was there, with his apprentice, reading the bulletin, called after me:


"Don't go so fast, bub; you'll get to your school in plenty of time!"


I thought he was making fun of me, and reached M. Hamel's little garden all out of breath.


Usually, when school began, there was a great bustle, which could be heard out in the street, the opening and closing of desks, lessons repeated in unison, very loud, with our hands over our ears to understand better, and the teacher's great ruler rapping on the table. But now it was all so still! I had counted on the commotion to get to my desk without being seen; but, of course, that day everything had to be as quiet as Sunday morning. Through the window I saw my classmates, already in their places, and M. Hamel walking up and down with his terrible iron ruler under his arm. I had to open the door and go in before everybody. You can imagine how I blushed and how frightened I was.


But nothing happened, M. Hamel saw me and said very kindly:


"Go to your place quickly, little Franz. We were beginning without you."


I jumped over the bench and sat down at my desk. Not till then, when I had got a little over my fright, did I see that our teacher had on his beautiful green coat, his frilled shirt, and the little black silk cap, all embroidered, that he never wore except on inspection and prize days. Besides, the whole school seemed so strange and solemn. But the thing that surprised me most was to see, on the back benches that were always empty, the village people sitting quietly like ourselves; old Hauser, with his three-cornered hat, the former mayor, the former postmaster, and several others besides. Everybody looked sad; and Hauser had brought an old primer, thumbed at the edges, and he held it open on his knees with his great spectacles lying across the pages.


While I was wondering about it all, M. Hamel mounted his chair, and, in the same grave and gentle tone which he had used to me, said:


"My children, this is the last lesson I shall give you. The order has come from Berlin to teach only German in the schools of Alsace and Lorraine. The new master comes tomorrow. This is your last French lesson. I want you to be very attentive."


What a thunder-clap these words were to me!


Oh, the wretches; that was what they had put up at the town hall!


My last French lesson! Why, I hardly knew how to write! I should never learn any more! I must stop there, then! Oh, how sorry I was for not learning my lessons, for seeking birds' eggs, or going sliding on the Saar! My books, that had seemed such a nuisance a while ago, so heavy to carry, my grammar, and my history of the saints, were old friends now that I couldn't give up. And M. Hamel, too; the idea that he was going away, that I should never see him again, made me forget all about his ruler and how cranky he was.


Poor man! It was in honor of this last lesson that he had put on his fine Sunday-clothes, and now I understood why the old men of the village were sitting there in the back of the room. It was because they were sorry, too, that they had not gone to school more. It was their way of thanking our master for his forty years of faithful service and of showing their respect for the country that was theirs no more.


While I was thinking of all this, I heard my name called. It was my turn to recite. What would I not have given to be able to say that dreadful rule for the participle all through, very loud and clear, and without one mistake? But I got mixed up on the first words and stood there, holding on to my desk, my heart beating, and not daring to look up. I heard M. Hamel say to me:


"I won't scold you, little Franz; you must feel bad enough. See how it is! Every day we have said to ourselves: 'Bah! I've plenty of time. I'll learn it tomorrow.' And now you see where we've come out. Ah, that's the great trouble with Alsace; she puts off learning till tomorrow. Now those fellows out there will have the right to say to you: 'How is it; you pretend to be Frenchmen, and yet you can neither speak nor write your own language?' But you are not the worst, poor little Franz. We've all a great deal to reproach ourselves with.


"Your parents were not anxious enough to have you learn. They preferred to put you to work on a farm or at the mills, so as to have a little more money. And I? I've been to blame also. Have I not often sent you to water my flowers instead of learning your lessons? And when I wanted to go fishing, did I not just give you a holiday?"


Then, from one thing to another, M. Hamel went on to talk of the French language, saying that it was the most beautiful language in the world--the clearest, the most logical; that we must guard it among us and never forget it, because when a people are enslaved, as long as they hold fast to their language it is as if they had the key to their prison. Then he opened a grammar and read us our lesson. I was amazed to see how well I understood it. All he said seemed so easy, so easy! I think, too, that I had never listened so carefully, and that he had never explained everything with so much patience. It seemed almost as if the poor man wanted to give us all he knew before going away, and to put it all into our heads at one stroke.


After the grammar, we had a lesson in writing. That day M. Hamel had new copies for us, written in a beautiful round hand: France, Alsace, France, Alsace. They looked like little flags floating everywhere in the schoolroom, hung from the rod at the top of our desks. You ought to have seen how everyone set to work, and how quiet it was! The only sound was the scratching of the pens over the paper. Once some beetles flew in; but nobody paid any attention to them, not even the littlest ones, who worked right on tracing their fishhooks, as if that was French, too. On the roof the pigeons cooed very low, and I thought to myself:


"Will they make them sing in German, even the pigeons?"


Whenever I looked up from my writing I saw M. Hamel sitting motionless in his chair and gazing first at one thing, then at another, as if he wanted to fix in his mind just how everything looked in that little schoolroom. Fancy! For forty years he had been there in the same place, with his garden outside the window and his class in front of him, just like that. Only the desks and benches had been worn smooth; the walnut trees in the garden were taller, and the hop vine, that he had planted himself twined about the windows to the roof. How it must have broken his heart to leave it all, poor man; to hear his sister moving about in the room above, packing their trunks! For they must leave the country next day.


But he had the courage to hear every lesson to the very last. After the writing, we had a lesson in history, and then the babies chanted their ba, be, bi, bo, bu. Down there at the back of the room old Hauser had put on his spectacles and, holding his primer in both hands, spelled the letters with them. You could see that he, too, was crying; his voice trembled with emotion, and it was so funny to hear him that we all wanted to laugh and cry. Ah, how well I remember it, that last lesson!


All at once the church clock struck twelve. Then the Angelus. At the same moment the trumpets of the Prussians, returning from drill, sounded under our windows. M. Hamel stood up, very pale, in his chair. I never saw him look so tall.


"My friends," said he, "I--I--" But something choked him. He could not go on.


Then he turned to the blackboard, took a piece of chalk, and, bearing down with all his might, he wrote as large as he could:


"Vive la France!"


Then he stopped and leaned his head against the wall, and, without a word, he made a gesture to us with his hand:


"School is dismissed--you may go."


~~~~~~~ THE END ~~~~~~~



Sunday, 21 August 2011

Was It A Dream?

do tell me your opinions of the story!!

Thursday, 21 July 2011

for EVER

In my earlier post, I said "some stories remain with you"! They sure do.
Some words or phrases also get inscribed upon our memory and very often find the way to our tongue...

"Et tu Brute" is one of these for me. These words of Shakespeare are always with me. In my thoughts , while I'm writing or randomly any time. Strength of friendship and the stab of betrayal are epitomized by this expression.

"Waiting for a response in affirmative" is a line I have always added at the end of any business letter possible. This , by the way, came from none other than my elder brother's English notes so many years ago!!

"Au revoir 'Arry" . This goodbye wish for Harry Potter by the breath-taking Fleur Delacour just dosen't get off my mind, probably because I loved the series or because I hate the word "Phlegm".

"Books are treasure, reading is pleasure". Rhyme created by my mom for my class7 English project! The rhyme is so like true for me.

"Hail Mogambo" ! This dialogue, by the technology loving villain, from the delightful movie Mr. India is my favorite. This is how I learned a new word , hail. Whenever doing some mischief  I utter these 2 words to my friends. And their obvious reply is "Mogambo khush hua".

"FAMILY= Father And Mother I Love You." My class1 teacher told us. And she remains a favorite.